I tell you. Feeling bad mentally sucks, but these physical issues are just terrible too.
Monday my back hurt beyond all fucking reason. Also my ribcage hurt terribly too for a short while. I took twice the recommended dosage of naproxin in a 24 hour period and probably pissed off my liver.
Ive felt hungry ALL THE TIME. Basically, my anxiety and meds are making me unable to stay asleep the whole night though I fall asleep as soon as I go to lay down.
Like.. monday morning (sunday "night) I woke up at 3 AM, realized I was really hungry... and had to go eat some toast or something to go back to bed. Then I ate a bagel in the morning and drank some hot chocolate and was full. Only a few hours later (lunch time) I was EXTREMELY hungry. I don't know if it was the hunger or something else but my ribcage hurt to the point of just... I couldn't even tell time. I went to go eat at a thai place and just got chicken and rice. From the time I ordered to the time I got my food, I had no idea how long passed. It felt like a few seconds. I scarfed down my food and slowly started to feel better. Then, by the time I got out of work- I was hungry again. Same story today (minus rib cage pain)
I did a bit of research and found out that when you sleep your Leptin level increases- which tells your body it needs to burn calories. So when you do not get enough sleep, your leptin level is too low. So your body tells itself that it is hungry because it needs energy. Not only that, but grhelin levels shoot up with little sleep which tell your body it is NOT hungry!
So, both of these combined- you feel hungry ALL THE TIME, because your body wants energy, and you're awake.. so that means food!
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Just thought I would share if anyone else is having that problem. I know my sister is. You're constantly hungry- or you cannot tell if you are hungry. You'll eat, and have a full stomach... but your stomach will ache as if it is hungry...
I need to get more sleep! I better try to get to bed early tonight. I think I am going to invest in a mattress pad. Maybe that will help me sleep better so I dont wake up every night and have interupted sleep! I also need to start working out- that'll help a lot!
I bought a bunch of new clothes today, new shoes... and yay! I went for a more simplstic, classy look than my usually craziness.

Simple pants and shirt, chunky jewlery- that sort of thing! I also bought 2 pairs of flats and 2 pairs of heels.. the heals are so cool!
Anyway. I am going to get my hair colored...and also... get a facial! I am going to start my massage therapy hopefully this week or next... and hopefully my regular therapist calls me back soon ( I left her a message yesterday afternoon).. and last but not least, I have to go see my psychiatrist so he can go "cool, ramp up meds" and send me on my way for 225$ a pop (thank the heavens for insurance!!)
Im so happy with the support system at work. Everyone has been giving me hugs and greeting me and saying how much they missed me and loved me- even today.(yesterday was first day) But I still tend to bomb at the end of the day under all the stress.

Which I dont want to do. Like.. Monday I was good all day at work, this day just half the day... I hope its sunny tomorrow! Maybe that would help me get through the entire day of work with a smile on my face!
Man this is all so hard to deal with. I feel like this turning point in my life is so important- but its almost stressing me out just to take care of myself. Its so awkward to me. :\ I guess I'll get used to it.. Maybe.
Anyway. Going to take a xanax and drink some water... take a hot shower and try to sleep. Guhhhhh~